For many years, I have done a “Goals” list.
It used to include such things as weight loss, buying a piece of furniture, or whatever my mind desired at the time.
Through the years, as with most things, it seems to have matured.
This past November, my list included just 3 things.
1. A lofty business goal.
2. To run my first marathon.
3. To Live. In the moment. To be fully present.
I figured I had this year’s list locked down.
I mean, I know how to run my real estate business very well, I started running 6 months before the actual marathon….now I just need to figure out how to let go and live.
Little did I know that a few months in, I would begin training for what could be the most mentally challenging year of my life.
For those who know me, you know I don’t do well with change.
As a child, there was just too much uncertainty. So as I have aged, that is something I decided to control…my surroundings and day to day life.
I’d say I had a pretty damn good routine until recently.
I thought I had control.
I can’t speak for you, but for me, one of the most frightening aspects of this virus and quarantine is the uncertainty.
When will it hit?
Who could it take from me?
How bad will it be?
When will it end?
So much freaking uncertainty.
…And, I really have no control over any of it.
Without control over my environment, my routine and my health….I flipped out last week.
What will I do?
How will I continue to live my life without KNOWING what tomorrow will bring???
And then I opened my devotional…..Jesus Calling. I’ve referred to this little book for many, many years.
Through the fears of my children leaving the nest, to my Dad’s passing, health scares… and just those days when you want to cry.
You know, the days you wake up and just feel off? Even on the darkest days, His message has brought me so much PEACE.
And so last week, on a very dreary day, I opened it up again…only to be met with a message so loud, I knew it was meant for me.
Our Lord is with us, in every way.
Waiting for you to come to Him, holding out His hands to offer you comfort and peace.
He is a constant.
He is the calm in this storm.
I realized that day that the ONLY certainty I have is Him.
We all have had experiences in our lives that have been eye opening.
Those “ah ha” moments when you just know something bigger than you has either moved you or blocked your way.
Growing up, I had many.
He was with me every step of the way.
For me to forget that, to doubt it, to retract in fear of what I’m walking into….well, that’s not an option.
So, I decided to rearrange my spring training schedule a bit.
I won’t focus on building muscle, but mental strength. I’ll go through my memories into times that I overcame. I’ll stack those up one by one, as if I’m layering my foundation….because I am.
I won’t stress about timing or how long things will take. I’ll just LIVE for today, like I should be anyway. I’ll listen to the birds. I’ll call family and friends. I’ll slow down my pace and continue to work on my breath and my inner peace.
I’ll keep my eyes laser focused on Him and I won’t let the fears, media, statistics, or stories block the way to my goals.
I’ll trust the process and enjoy the ride.
I’ve got this amazing “tour guide“ who has promised me He will never leave my side. ♥️
Take your thoughts out of what was and put your heart into what will be.
They say it takes 21 days to break a habit….I’m tearing down my walls and allowing Him to rebuild me.
Are you ready for a renovation??
Be safe, strong(in all ways), and begin your “Spring Training” with the best coach ever…. today.
He has a foolproof playbook, friends.
And best of all?
He knows the way…..